spring cleaning 

Spring feels like the real New Year.  The rain finally lets up, after washing away debris that used to exist.  Trees become even more gorgeous- beautiful already but now tipped with perfect tiny blossoms.  The sun comes back, and yanks all from its roots, growing everything strong and flawless from its water hoarding foundation.  And then there’s me- gaining another year from pisces season.

When I was a kid, my birthday meant parties and presents.  As I got older, my birthday meant out of town trips for spring break.  Now that I’m gaining maturity at rapid speeds, growing older is so absolutely refreshing. 

I made a habit to hoard these friendships and relationships that I had, regardless of their nutritional value.  I knew quality was important- but I’d never felt it, so quantity had to suffice.

I’ve dumped so many “friends” this past calendar year, I hadn’t realized until now, how unhealthy it was for me just to have these folks around.

Every aspect of life lately feels so fresh.  I’m feeling for the first time in a long time, (maybe ever) that I can be true to myself without trying to tip-toe around the judgment of other’s- others I felt the need to hold so close.  Other’s that shoved their judgments so far down my throat that I could never speak for myself.

The sun is awake and I too, feel awakened.  I feel refreshed.  I feel ready for all the blessings and fortunes that I know are coming my way.