I had such a terrible mood for a few hours today, and I couldn’t help but to accidentally show it. I’ve had so many mixed emotions recently. I feel like I’ve been drowning in a whirlwind of confusion, anger and doubt.
I’ve allowed myself to be in position that I’ve become stuck. I’m stuck in a hole without a ladder and I can’t escape with anyone’s help. I know I’m hard on myself. I know I’m tough on myself. I tear myself down further than anyone else I’ve known.
I’m not exercising my potential- I’m barely tapping into it at all. I’m not chasing my passion- I’m terrified I’ve distanced myself too far. I’m stuck and I’m scared and I’m pissed off about it.
I had a conversation with someone I see my characteristics in. I sat at the table over tequila with my cousin/childhood bestfriend. I came home to a loving apartment, where my lover fills my heart and my soul with happiness and fills my ears with laughter.
Why is it so easy to get angered by the things that don’t actually matter?
Wild Little Hare 