Ameliorated.

My post yesterday seemed sort of hostile and negative. So I’ve decided to counter balance it with a post today about the things that happened last year that I am grateful for:

I learned what it feels like to have a family- an actual loving, supportive family, who gives a shit about your birthday. I felt what it feels likes to be surrounded on holidays and and football Sundays by people who genuinely understand and love me anyways for the person I am on good or bad days.

I learned the integrity it takes to brave the world without a crutch. I learned the daily struggles of sobriety for an addict. I learned about pride, and the sacrifice it sometimes takes to love another. I learned about forgiveness, and what it means to fully trust another.

I fell in love with gardening. Not only fell in love with gardening, but was able to fully submerse myself into a community I otherwise would have never known existed. I’ve learned more about gardening, and growing and the power of nurture this year than I have probably in my whole life.

I was given the opportunity to establish a relationship with my cousins and create new memories to laugh about, which is a gift in itself.

And I fucking learned how to save money. Which might be the most impressive skill of all time. I managed to not only open a savings account, I was able to alter my thoughts about money and it somehow became simple and highly motivating to save my earnings. Without my savings, I most likely would not have had the confidence to quit my job- something that has brightened my year so much already.